Saturday, October 08, 2005

A Spy Among The Ranks

The hurricane has made some serious changes in my life. My baby's mother has been living with me for some time now because her place was completely destroyed. We did plan on moving to Houston and establishing our own lives apart there but still keep in close touch for the sake of the baby but another curve ball came out of nowhere. So for now she's staying here at my place. We've been getting along quite well lately. We really have no choice; I mean we have to for the baby. Plus, we're going to be in each other's lives for the next 18 years or so, so we may as well get along. Someone is trying to sabotage that though.


Oddly, someone sent some posts to her BP account from my blog regarding other women I've dated. They sent them with insults towards her and me. I'm wondering why someone would intervene like that. They sounded as if they didn't know that I'm open with my baby's mom. They tried to throw the fact that I've been with other women in her face. She knew about all that though. She did not know the details like what I do with those girls, how I felt about them, etc, but she did know that I wasn't limiting myself to just one woman. I mean, I just don't commit and she knows that. She knows... she knows we're not in a committed relationship. She knows that I've been with other women. She knows where we stand as far as being able to do what we want when we want, and you didn't start an argument between us last night. We're just trying to stay in a positive light so we can both work together in raising our little boy.


This person, the one who sent the note, comes across to me as some one very, very spiteful, a coward, and not very intelligent. Why, you ask? For one, why the insults and why all the spying? What does that person have to gain? Is it that they want us to "split up" (even though we're not together) so they could get with her or me? If so, then why the insults towards each of us? And if they are going to insult us, why hide their identity. They sent the notes from a BP page with no pics or info about themselves that could give them away... a cowardice act. I thought about sending them a note but then I figured all I'd do is just create an online argument and to be honest, I don't care for those because it doesn't solve anything. They can't be that intelligent because what intelligent person creates this kind of trouble and then hides? An intelligent person would do something that gets results and brings forth some kind of benefit, not nothing. A person with a low IQ goes off of first instinct all the time. They get mad so they fight; they fall in love without thinking about whether this person is good for them or not and end up in bad relationships; they get money and go spend it all at once; etc. They do things without thinking what's in their (and others') best interest. They just act without fighting their own feelings, knowing that it won't bring them anything. Sometimes though, a person just likes to start trouble and then walk away to let everyone else deal with their creation. They could be one of these people, but this still isn't something an intelligent person would do.


Now, I said I wasn't going to send them a note to avoid an online argument, so what am I doing here, in this post? Honestly, it's my blog so I'm stating what's on my mind. It's what this blog is here for. I can probably expect something in retaliation along the lines of a spiteful comment or BP note, or something else from my blog to be sent to my baby's mother's BP page. Again, they'll remain in secret, showing that they aren't brave enough to start shit and stand up to it like a man/woman; again they won't gain anything, showing that they aren't smart enough to realize that they're just wasting their time; again, they'll show that they aren't disciplined enough to fight whatever spiteful feelings they have for whatever/no reason.


Why not just ignore you? Because I want you to know that I'm willing to confront you, intellectually or physically. I'm willing to talk to you with reason. I'm willing to listen to your argument IF you can present one that can stand on it's own, not one that's just full of curse words and insults. Can you make that happen? Can you prove that you're worth the effort? Can you prove yourself to be of higher intelligence and of sterner metal? I'll be honest, and I'm not saying this to insult you but because it just comes across as factual according to your actions, I don't think you can prove it. I don't think you're brave enough to take someone on and I don't think you're smart enough to do so either. All I can expect out of you is words to try and make me angry, to not challenge me, and quite frankly I've had enough drama and problems in my life to waste my time dealing with you. If I'm going to take on a problem, a challenge, I'm going to make sure it's one worth my time and effort. I'm going to make sure it's with someone that is on my level, not an elementary one. I mean, let's be honest, even YOU have to agree that your actions were those of a teenager, ESPECIALLY since you choose to hide. If you can't come like someone worthy enough, then I'm just going to keep ignoring everything you send. Your notes will go unread and deleted and so will your comments... by both of us. You'll just be wasting your time. Perhaps though, if you do it enough, if you keep cursing enough, if you keep making enough insults (which will be ignored) you'll vent the steam that you need to let off... and hopefully that will make you a happier person, hopefully that will make you move on with your life, on to do more productive things with it.


Anyway, since I see my privacy is being invaded, I'm going to move again. I'll either be moving to a place that's password protected or just take my blog offline altogether. If I move to a password protected blog, I'll be giving that password to the few who've visited my blog and laced it with positive thoughts and challenging ideas. I thank those of you... you know who you are.

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