Saturday, March 30, 2024

Just Friends...

I have this friend that I've known for about 7 years. We met at UNO (Univ of New Orleans), when we were both freshmen, through her sister, who was my old high school friend. This friend, who I'll call V, is a girl that I've always found as an attractive girl who has a great head on her shoulders. She's very responsible with her money and credit, with her grades, and even has good style without all the flashy tight clothes. We were considering dating when we first met but we became close as friends so that's where we decided to stay. We just didn't see us clicking like that because of different lifestyles; she's the moral church attendee who doesn't curse and asks me not to curse around her, never goes clubbing (and I stress NEVER), listens ONLY to gospel, has had sex but has decided to abstain until she feels morally comfortable, etc... while I'm the one who curses up a storm, does NOT attend church for anything, loves to socialize at clubs from time to time while peeping out the girls in their short skirts, listens to the most violent of music, and has sex, sex, and MORE SEX!!!! We just found each other's way of life completely unacceptable to form a dating relationship but enjoyed each other's company enough to stay friends. Somehow, despite all of our differences we've always been able to have laughs together and have great conversation.


V and I don't always keep in close contact. In fact, it had been months before we'd spoken before yesterday. We usually talk for a few days and update each other on what's going on in our lives then lose contact for a month or 3. Yesterday I decided to give her a call and pay her a visit. I told her everything that's going on in my life and she told me about hers. I had just left the gym and was starving so I asked her if she wanted to go with me to the Cheesecake Bistro, my treat. She was cool with it. We had dinner and joked and laughed for over an hour; it was a lot of fun. As we spoke I couldn't help but to notice how pretty her smile was, how cute her laugh sounded, and how her eyes were something to keep a man mesmerized. While she spoke, I wondered if she found me attractive in the same way. When we'd walk to the car or to the table I'd stare at her figure, her curves. She's definitely sexy. Waiting for the valet to bring my car around, we cracked jokes and laughed, taking small glimpses at each other; I wondered if she found me sexy in the same way. Now, don't get it twisted, she's JUST a friend... but a very beautiful one, inside and out, and one that I've always admired because she's always maintained her focus and her beauty. I took her straight home afterwards and when we got to her apartment complex I walked her to her door. We had a couple of laughs on the way to her front door and again I couldn't help but to admire her beauty. We hugged goodbye as we normally do but as we hugged I noticed something: I didn't want to let go. I felt comfortable embracing her, very comfortable... so I hugged her a little more tightly than I'd hug any other lady friend of mine and it lasted a little longer than a normal friendly hug, just a tiny bit longer. Coming from her end, the hug felt equally firm and prolonged. It felt as if neither of us wanted to let go. I didn't pay it no mind though and just shrugged it off because I know where we stand and that's definitely where I want things to stay and it's where she wants it to stay also. I mean, we've spoken about it before and it's where we feel comfortable... where we've always felt comfortable, so I just gave her the wink and told her goodbye.


The issue is that I've got other attractive female friends that are just friends and I can't look at them like this. The thought of me and them just doesn't click. There's no unexplainable funny feeling between me and them, not like last night. Nothing's ever happened between V and myself, not a kiss, no cuddling, nothing. We've always just been friends and we've always respected each other's lifestyle but there has always been this funny vibe. What's going on here?

[ TheSaga | 9:08 PM | ]