Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Sex Was The Answer

In looking back at almost all my previous relationships, I've usually been the one that broke it off, not always but almost. I did it because I wanted more; I wanted to date more, meet more people, even hoe around some. That's actually pretty normal for a young kat but I wonder how much of that hoing around was linked to low self esteem.


Sex made me feel like I looked good when I felt ugly so I did it as much as possible. This has made me wonder how many "unattractive" people (I put it in quotations because in my opinion looks are simply a matter of taste; plus, i hate to judge someone as unattractive... who the fuck am I to call someone that?), women in particular, have sex just to validate themselves. I find that a lot of women who are overweight sacrifice more for a man than women who can get pretty much whoever they want. This shit bothers me a little bit because, having been in the "ugly" category, I don't like to see someone sacrifice their spirit and bodies just to be made to feel worthy. I don't know, maybe I shouldn't worry about it. It's not like I can really do anything about it... but I wish I could.

[ TheSaga | 10:26 AM | ]