Wednesday, August 17, 2005

No Rest For The Weary

Damn I'm tired. I think everything is finally starting to set in: the baby, his mom's bad condition, this change in my life...


I can't seem to escape this right now. I can't even fantasize my way out of this world. Normally I think back to better days or think of good ones that are to come... but my mind is blank right now. It's probably because things are so uncertain. I don't know what the immediate future holds. I might be raising this kid on my own for all I know. My new son's mom is doing better but she still could have long term negative effects. We just have to wait and see.


Anyway, I'm so sleepy right now. I've been going to the hospital every chance I've had. No gym, little guitar playing, no dates... just hanging with some family. Nothing takes all of this out of my mind though. It's there to stay until everything has settled. Until then I'm left to wonder: Where will life take me now?


The changes are starting to scare me a bit but not much. I know that I can handle anything that's thrown at me but it's just that life was going so well before all of this happened. Everything was going so smoothly. I don't know. Maybe I'm jus tired. I haven't slept much these past few nights and I've had a lot on my mind.

[ TheSaga | 2:56 PM | ]