Sunday, August 14, 2005

My Dad And His Grandson

My dad and I weren't very close when I was growing up. He'd pick me up most weekends and I'd stay by him but we just didn't interact much. I never saw him as "The MAN" because he was always precautious about everything he did and I hated that. I looked at harder men, like my uncles, as the MEN.

I used to hate that I wasn't that close to my parents because I'd see other kids interact with their parents so sociably and as parent and child at the same time. I never really felt like I could go to my parents for anything... still don't.

Anyway, my dad is leaving for Honduras for a few months so I figured I take my son to go see him before he left. We don't go there often but we do pass by and visit from time to time and every time I go with lil man, he never wants to leave. I end up just leaving him there a few hours while I go visit a friend in the uptown area. I don't know what it is that makes lil man want to stay there. I mean, all he ever does is watch TV and play with some toys. My dad hasn't even learned how to make sense of everything his grandson is saying... but they still connect. I won't complain because in all honesty I love the fact that my son is connected with his "gran-pa". I just wonder what it is that attracts my son to staying over there so much.

In a twisted way, I'm glad that my father and I didn't get that close when I was growing up because it's made me appreciate this connection they share so much more. I think we could have somehow had the best of bothworlds if my dad would have tried more but in all honesty, I don't want to think about that. I just want my son to endulge in whatever it is he has with my dad.

[ TheSaga | 4:25 PM | ]