Wednesday, August 03, 2005

The Match Maker

Towards the bottom if this blog's post, it says I trust God, referring to trusting in God that He'll send you the person that's meant for you...


I hate to say it but I don't know if I can say that anymore... actually, I know I can't say that anymore. It's not because I don't "trust" God, it's because I don't trust my instinct in who God will send me. You can say "You'll know" but trust me, I won't. I won't because I thought I had that in my ex-wife. I literally thought that God had put us together. I thought, "Of all the women that could have gotten pregnant (trust me, there were PLENTY), she was the one. She's the one having my child. I'm old enough, I have a good future, I'm mature enough, she's a good woman... He's sent her to me. It's time I settle down." We got married and I was happy for a few years... stressed, but happy. Then she left. Unless you've been there, you can't imagine what it must feel like to think this about the person you've married, be happy, and then suddenly have that person you thought was God given just leave. Trust me, it was a bitch to deal with; it was enough to shake that trust that someone may be God given. So... I'll let God do His thing (as long as it's not match-making) and I'll do mine.

[ TheSaga | 11:58 AM | ]